Memories, come and go- April 20, 2025 

A couple weeks ago I developed three rolls from my past trip to Oaxaca. It had moments with my great aunt, my mom and my uncle enjoying their time together. I was able to be more present for this trip and have more intention behind every frame. 

I was excited to finally develop them and be able to relive those memories.

As I was developing I had accidentally confused my bleach container with my fix(word to the wise ALWAYS read labels). Two minutes had gone before I realized my mistake. My heart sank once I realized. I poured the bleach out and saw the amount of silver that was striped from the negatives. Over 100 images gone. 

Weeks later I had the courage to finally scan them.

So happy I did, I was able to see glimpses of sweet moments. The bleach created a haze and a blur to the images that remained. In a way symbolizing fading memories. It reminded me that moments are fleeting, the importance of being present and embracing and appreciating everyone and everything that you love.

Fading memories

  

I think I rely on photos as place holders to my terrible memory. Using photos as a way to trigger memories and recall moments. I sometimes forget with film you never have a guarantee. 

 I’m reminded that some moments aren’t meant to be captured but rather experienced and appreciated. 
Having no record of occuring, only living in the space in your mind as memories.